Life is Precious

As I finished my last blog I came back to what is real at this moment.  It's not about me, but my nephew's wife Yumi.  She is critical in the hospital at this time and only 40 years old.  Her family is faced with the bleakness of her recovery.  After suffering a severe stroke, she is a 5 on a scale of 1-5.  They are in Japan with their Japanese family surrounding them, but  half way around the world from their American family. Jarrett continues to call his father in America with updates and need for support. The brain is such an "unknown" for doctors, even in this day.

Our only hope is in what God will do for Yumi and the comfort that He gives this family in waiting. Lord, please guide the doctors and give them wisdom.  Lord, please send your angels to comfort Jarrett, their two daughters and Yumi's parents. Give provision as needed.
This is a reminder, once again, of how precious and fragile life is. Lord help me to live in the moment and love the people in my life.

PEACE

I feel so anxious about what I am "supposed" to be doing with my life right now.  It's wonderful to have options, but I find myself in the "what if" mode, rather than living today!

•  I am looking at getting my LPC, which will be about a 3 year process, but at least it will provide an option on how to make money.  It's not just about making more money, but a provision for future needs.
•  I am painting, somewhat...why somewhat? Because I haven't painted in over 2 weeks! There is no way to improve my skills if I'm not actively in the studio.
• We have a new granddaughter, 6 hours away...should we move to be closer to her and be a more active part of her life and our children's?  Or is it better for them to be more long distance.  If I knew it would be a good thing for everyone to move, I would do it in a hearbeat!
• We talk about getting a small acreage to grow an orchard and veggies, maybe raise a head or two of livestock.  If so, where?  That would hinge on the above...so many things to consider!

This anxiety almost stiffles me!  I feel my heart rate increase and a foreboding feeling overwhelm me.  What to do?  What to do?  Well, last night before I went to sleep it came to me!  I just need to make my best effort each day, but ask God for peace in my life. Peace, what a beautiful word and feeling that showers down on me. It's calm, it's a cool breeze, it's comfort.  Peace only comes from God.  I find that I have to keep taking my thoughts captive and asking God again and again for His Peace that passes all understanding.  I will have to train my thoughts to stay my mind on Him and to relax a little....He is the one to complete the good work in me and to guide my footsteps.  Yes, I still have to use my mind to think, He gave it to me for that purpose. Also, it's not just MY decision, I need to just rest a little and pray that Keith's logical mind will come up with a plan.