PEACE

I feel so anxious about what I am "supposed" to be doing with my life right now.  It's wonderful to have options, but I find myself in the "what if" mode, rather than living today!

•  I am looking at getting my LPC, which will be about a 3 year process, but at least it will provide an option on how to make money.  It's not just about making more money, but a provision for future needs.
•  I am painting, somewhat...why somewhat? Because I haven't painted in over 2 weeks! There is no way to improve my skills if I'm not actively in the studio.
• We have a new granddaughter, 6 hours away...should we move to be closer to her and be a more active part of her life and our children's?  Or is it better for them to be more long distance.  If I knew it would be a good thing for everyone to move, I would do it in a hearbeat!
• We talk about getting a small acreage to grow an orchard and veggies, maybe raise a head or two of livestock.  If so, where?  That would hinge on the above...so many things to consider!

This anxiety almost stiffles me!  I feel my heart rate increase and a foreboding feeling overwhelm me.  What to do?  What to do?  Well, last night before I went to sleep it came to me!  I just need to make my best effort each day, but ask God for peace in my life. Peace, what a beautiful word and feeling that showers down on me. It's calm, it's a cool breeze, it's comfort.  Peace only comes from God.  I find that I have to keep taking my thoughts captive and asking God again and again for His Peace that passes all understanding.  I will have to train my thoughts to stay my mind on Him and to relax a little....He is the one to complete the good work in me and to guide my footsteps.  Yes, I still have to use my mind to think, He gave it to me for that purpose. Also, it's not just MY decision, I need to just rest a little and pray that Keith's logical mind will come up with a plan.